Exciting Sermon! Yes! That's how it happened for me exactly. Exactly. EXACTLY. The spacing out of the timing of it was uneven, some long pauses, some intense and painful regrowth (literally!! For several months I thought I was having heart attacks - It felt like dying and grieving at the same time - not pleasant! It was the worst heartbreak I've ever experienced, but I knew, and was drawn closer knowing, He gave me a taste of His own, a blessing, a gift! Part of the gift of faith, I guess), and some things happened in rapid succession. I move forward and grow, not a spiral as some have said, but the sin I see is a spiral - repetitive, I've been here before, seen that before, better or worse but the same path, no this is a tightrope, narrower than you think, every slip wakes me up and I am completely dependent on God's mercy and lightening grace. Or I WILL fall. I could go back but... no. Anyway, I tell my Lord/Father/Holy Spirit I love Him, but when I really feel it, what comes out is "I love you too." My unsaved mind can recall how crazy it sounds, which helps me be humble. Also, it feels like bragging to be loved so attentively. Yes preach the Word, it was the key, the seed, and is the Way and the Water. Hahaha, yes "It's aliiiiive!" |