I'm preaching this morning out of the 42nd Psalm. I'm not sure if I'm preaching to you or if I'm preaching to myself. I don't mean to be selfish this morning, but if there's anybody that needed church, it was me. And I know there's others that are going through tough times, I do. You know, we as a church family, when one of us hurts, we all hurt. We say that, and we ought to mean it. But truly, we have hurt this week and hurt last weekend. And it'll take some time, but God is good and gracious and kind and merciful. And we're very thankful for the outpouring of love for our church family. And of course, we thank God for his grace. And preaching is something that I'm called to do. And so I felt like I needed to be in my place this morning and preach to myself. I've preached in a lot of places. I've had the privilege to preach to thousands. It's overwhelming to preach to a place that has 4,000 or 5,000 people. I've had the privilege to preach to hundreds of people. I do that every week. I've had the opportunity to preach in jails where there's been five or six inmates. I've had the opportunity to preach in nursing homes where there's been just a handful of people. And but sometimes the audience is just yourself. And sometimes you need to find the encouragement that only comes from the Lord. And that's what I've done this week. The only audience that I've had this week is me in those quiet times, of course, my family. we, we have just been preaching to ourselves and I believe that's what the 42nd Psalm is all about. If you turn there, there's, there's five books in the Psalms. Uh, the first book is verse basically chapters one through chapters 41. The second book in the Psalms is, is starting in this chapter. It starts the second book, which is the book, or the chapter rather, of the 42nd chapter of Psalms. And the psalmist here is basically crying out to God in a deep longing for God in seasons of discouragement. and seasons of pain and spiritual dryness. And he calls out to God, I've entitled this psalm, I've actually given it several titles through this week, and so I'm terrible at titling messages, but if I were to title a message, I would entitle this, When Our Soul Is Thirsty. Or I would entitle it, An Honest Prayer from a Discouraged Saint. This is a man who, the psalmist, is exiled from the temple, the temple in the Old Testament. We would have referred to not the temple in the New Testament, not Herod's temple, but the temple in the Old Testament. There were several. Solomon's temple there was Nehemiah the one that during his time that temple So there would have been several temples in the Old Testament. This could have been during the Babylonian captivity. It could have been just a psalmist out there exiled We'll look at this in just a minute and we'll see why he was exiled or not able to travel with all the other pilgrims as they journeyed to Jerusalem for the festivities. He's meanwhile on the backside of Jordan somewhere running for his life in a desert, being chased. We'll see that the enemy is after him. And so we see that he has a deep longing for the presence of God. This would have been in the Old Testament. They would have longed to be with God in that place. The temple was the place where they felt that God's presence was real. It didn't mean that God's presence wasn't real anywhere else, but the temple, there was something special, something magnificent about this temple. There's something about this temple that this psalmist, he wanted to get there. By the way, the author of this psalm is the sons of Korah. These men were the descendants of the Kohathites and they were Levites. They would have been direct descendants from a man by the name of Korah. Korah was someone you can read about in Numbers chapter 16. Korah was a man that turned on Moses and God opened up the earth. Do you remember that? And swallowed Korah and right there in the midst of all the people. Well, these men, of course, God did not kill all of their family. These men would have been direct descendants from a man by the name of Korah. And they had a place in the nation of Israel. These men would have been song leaders, if you will, for the nation of Israel, according to the book of Chronicles. They would have been song leaders or musicians that would have played instruments while they worshipped the Lord. And there's something universally familiar about the ache of the human soul in Psalms 42. It's not just the Psalms of triumph. It's a Psalms of trouble. We talk about the Psalms of triumph. We talk about the Psalm of victory and how God fights our battles and how he's victorious and all those things. But that's not really what this Psalm is about. This Psalm is a Psalm of trouble. And all of you, look at me this morning, just come in real close. All of you are going to face trouble. You're going to. Now you may be in trouble right now. I say that a lot as a pastor. Either you're going into a storm or you're in the middle of the storm. If you just come out of the storm, you know that's what life brings. Last Saturday evening as my wife was in the bed and my son and my daughter and myself were sitting in a couch, the last thing on our mind was we may die tonight. The last thing on our mind was, we're going to lose a lot of our earthly possessions. That was the furthest thing from my mind at that point in my life. But just like that, a storm blew into our life. Trouble comes into our life. And guess what that trouble has done to me this week? That trouble has pushed me for a greater desire to be with the Lord, our God. Our troubles often, what we do is when the troubles come, we often let them push us further away from God and we become bitter and resentful and we become mad and angry. And by the way, there's no sin or there's nothing wrong with you asking God why. The psalmist here in Psalms 42, he asked God why. I think part of that is healing. God, why did you allow this? Why did you allow us to go through this? Why did you allow this to come into my life? And there's always a reason. Sometimes we won't know that reason until we get to heaven, but there is a reason. And I believe often when things are going well, and things are great in our life, and man, we're getting raises, and we're getting job opportunities, and we're buying houses, and we're just doing great. Everybody's healthy, and everything's just so good. And I've had seasons in my life like that. But my mouth is moist. When things are going well, church, my mouth is moist and I don't need that water that can thirst, that can quench that thirst. I'm not as hungry and thirsty for God as I am when troubles are pressing me. This psalm talks about a man who is running and he's so parched from the desert sun, and he's so thirsting for God, he's so desiring. He even describes it in verse number 1 as a heart. A heart, not a heart that beats in your chest, but a heart that would be a deer. And I've heard songs about this. We've sang songs here, as the heart panteth for the water, So my soul longeth after thee and we sing those songs, but it almost sounds like we're talking about a Disney movie Bambi and just pantsing around and that's not what this is. This deer is not prancing around in a Disney movie just looking and happens to stumble on some water. This deer is being chased by an enemy and has ran for a long time. And you can see the sides of this animal just panting and gasping for air and wanting water and comes to a water brook and needs that water to live. That's exactly where God wants us to be. We see this psalm is written not in a psalm of triumph, but a psalm of trouble. And it's holy trouble because it draws the soul to God. And the psalmist isn't sad, he's spiritually homesick. You ever been homesick before? You say, well, pastor, well, how would we apply this on this side of the cross? How does Psalms 42 apply to us? We obviously don't have a temple. We didn't come in here this morning and we desire that this is the only place that we can meet with God. You're the church and we can meet with God anywhere because God's in us. But understand that this is a special place because we come together as a church family and we love and we worship and we hear sound doctrine. We hear the word preached and we come together for edification and instruction and worship. And this just does something for us. But this is not a temple. This church is not a temple. Well, we see in John chapter two, listen to me church, we see in John chapter two that when those religious leaders came to Jesus, I'm gonna preach for just a minute, I don't even know what I'm gonna preach, but I'm gonna preach in just a second, I'm preaching to myself. John chapter two, the religious leaders came to Jesus and they basically said to Jesus, show us a sign that you are this Messiah. Of course, Jesus standing there in Jerusalem was, I'm sure, looking at this magnificent temple, and he pointed at that temple, and he said, you destroy this temple, and in three days, I'll raise it again. And they said, well, it took 46 years to build that temple. That's crazy. What are you talking about? 46 years to build that temple. And John puts in there, he was not speaking of that temple. He was speaking of his body. Jesus said, in this sign of the cross, I am the temple. I'm the one to come to fulfill the law. I'm the temple. Well then he says something. Paul says something in 1 Corinthians chapter six. Paul calls us the temple of God. You know what happened? Jesus Christ became that temple, and when us as believers receive Christ as Savior, he comes and indwells, the Spirit of God comes and indwells us. And guess what? We become the temple of God. Then Paul says something a little bit more about that. Ephesians chapter two, when he was speaking in context about the Jews and the Gentiles coming together, of course, as a church, he refers to that as the temple of God, the church of Jesus Christ. But then it actually comes to fulfillment. Church, don't miss this. In Revelation, in Revelation chapter number 21, Listen to what John says about the temple. And I saw no temple therein, for the Lord God Almighty and the Lamb are the temple of it. Talking about the New Jerusalem, John said, when I seen heaven, there was no temple for God himself is the temple. That is the completion, that is the future fulfillment of the temple. Jesus Christ is the temple. You and I are the temple, the church of God. When we come, we're the temple of God. But understand one day when we get to heaven and we look for his coming, we'll understand that he is what we should desire. So in Psalms 42, going back to that, how do we apply this chapter to us? We look forward to a day when we get to see Jesus face to face. What are you longing for in your life? What are you longing for? You know, since 2020, I have felt as a pastor that there has been a longing for people that desired our nation to get fixed. I have heard people talk about, well, if we just did this and boy, I would just, we're gonna have this. And there was a longing for what I would call people that live in this nation, that loves this nation to get our nation fixed. Then there's people that long for a better job. There may be stuck in a job that they don't like, or maybe it's going nowhere and they just long for it. Maybe there's people here that long for better health. But that's not what this is. This is a spiritual longing for one thing, and that's to be with God. That's to be with God. I want you to read it with me. In verse number one, it says, as the heart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God. My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God? My tears have been my meat or my bread day and night while they continually say unto me, where is thy God? When I remember these things, I pour out my soul in me, for I had gone with the multitude. I went with them to the house of God with the voice of joy and praise, with a multitude that kept holy day. He's referring to that time when he remembered how he journeyed to the temple. Why art thou cast down, O my soul? Why art thou disquieted in me? It's not wrong to ask God why. Two times he asked God why this happened. And I'll be the first to admit that this week your pastor has asked God why. And I'm sure that you could join in with me today when something has come knocking on your door. You've asked God why. Is this the first trial that I've ever went in? Oh, absolutely not. Is it the last trial? No, no. I hope it's the last time we face this, but who knows? Why? You're not asking God why from a heart of bitterness. You're not asking God why from a heart of resentfulness. You're just asking God why. He asked God why. Hope thou in God. Look at that. Here's the solution to the question. Hope thou in God, for I shall yet praise Him for the help of His countenance. O my God, my soul is cast down within me. Therefore will I remember Thee from the land of Jordan, and of the Hermonites from the hill of Misr. Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of the waterspouts, at Thy waves and Thy billows are gone over me, or they're crashing on around me and on me. Yet the Lord will command his loving kindness in the daytime and in the night. His song shall be with me in my prayer unto the God of my life. I will say unto God, my rock, why hast thou forgotten me? Why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy? And with a sword in my bones, my enemies reproach me while they say daily unto me, where is thy God? Why art thou cast down, O my soul? And why art thou disquieted within me? Hope thou in God, for I shall yet praise Him who is the health of my countenance and my God. Let's pray. Heavenly Father, we thank you for your mercy and your love and your grace. Thank you for the grace to stand today and every day. And Lord, we come together as we've worshiped. Lord, thank you for our church family and my, how we needed our church family. My, how we needed the word today. My, how I needed to preach to myself the things that I've preached for years. Lord, I pray that you'll help us through your word today, these next few minutes. I pray that if someone here today doesn't know you as we've heard today the gospel, in the lives and testimonies that has been told about the life-changing power of the gospel. I pray that they'll come to that saving knowledge of Christ and understand what it's like to have the life of God placed inside of us. We ask these things in Jesus' name, amen. In times when worship feels distant and God feels silent, Psalms 42 shows us how to cry and to remember to preach to ourselves and hope again in the Lord Jesus Christ. I wanna give you a couple things this morning. Look at the first two verses that's found in Psalms 42. The first two verses says this, as the heart or the deer panteth after the water brook, so panteth my soul after thee, O God. My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God? The psalmist here, he paints an imagery, kind of gives us an imagination, so use it. An imagery is so powerful, especially in the Psalms. Think about this as you see that deer running for his life. running away from a hunter who has his quiver full of arrows, who have already maybe shot an arrow and missed. And just think about this deer who's running in the deserts of southern Israel. Hot. No water much there and he's desiring a water brook. He's desiring just to get to a creek so he can have some water. And this deer is fleeing through the arid land, panting for water. Here's what the psalmist is wanting us to say. The psalmist isn't craving relief from the hunter. The psalmist isn't saying that the deer needs rest or that he needs rest or even rescued. He then points it back to his craving for God. He's not saying, deliver me, O God, from the hunter. Deliver me, O God, from this circumstance. Deliver me, O God, from all the things that are oppressing me. He says, God, I want you more than anything in the world. Have you ever had a place in your life where you wanted God more than a paycheck? You wanted God more than a house? You wanted God more than a car? You wanted God more than entertainment? You wanted God more than notoriety? You wanted God more than anything in the world? This is what the psalmist wants us to see. I want you, God, and if that's all I have, that's enough. In our despair, we often crave escape. The psalmist craved, not an escape, listen, the psalmist craved an encounter. You realize in this life, the things that we do have, the things that we've bought with our own money, the things that we've worked hard for, they can literally disappear in seconds. I've said that my whole life. I've said, man, you work for things and they're gone. Hey, but I saw that with my own eyes. Running into a house. My neighbor who basically saved our lives. I would say that. If it had been an hour later, I probably wouldn't be standing here. We're running in and we're screaming, get valuables. This is before the fire department got there. Get valuables, get valuables. And then the thought comes to your mind, what is valuable? All my valuables are on the front yard. They're standing there. All the things that you think you have to have, you're not grabbing them out of closets. No, because things can be replaced. My son, and I were running into the house trying to grab things, social security cards, personal possessions, wedding pictures, baby pictures, all the things that we thought there would be a headache to replace. They're usually in one little area, and they were, thankfully. I was trying to grab some other stuff. I grabbed a set of clothes. These came in real handy. I got some clothes out and I thought, well, man, I'm gonna preach in the morning. That's literally what I thought as I'm running in. I've got to preach in the morning, so let me get some clothes out. I told my son, I said, son, you need to run upstairs. This is while the garage is still burning fiercely. It had gotten on the back porch. We probably should not have went in, but I felt like we had to go in just to double check. I said, son, I want you to run to your room and I want you to get what's valuable in your room. Just grab something. If you grab it because we're gonna lose the house, it's gone. So Jake runs up the stairs. I was so proud of him. We were fighting it as long as we could and we knew that the garage was gone. We knew the vehicles were gone. We just wanted now to just save what we could. So he runs up there and I'm running in the house and trying to get a few things. I'm running out, he's running down the stairs. I happen to look up and Jake's got his Xbox with his cords. The only thing he had in his arms was his Xbox and his cords. And I thought to myself, in that moment, wow. I mean, truly, he saved his Xbox. And then I screamed at him and said, is that the only thing that's valuable? He said, dad, I don't have nothing valuable. I thought, he probably don't at 19. You got your wallet? Yeah, I got my wallet. You got your Xbox? Good, you can play games. Wow. He grabbed his Xbox. I've had to ask myself that question many times. The things that we work for, the things that we think we have to have, when they're consumed and they go up in smoke, you realize that's not what I really need. Nothing wrong against having some things. Of course, there are luxuries in lives. There's nothing wrong with, obviously, we need more than one set of clothes or even two sets of clothes, especially in the summertime. You'll go through 14 t-shirts. Y'all know how that is, as hot as it is outside. You need more than some of those things. But then you start thinking, man, some of the things I had. I'm not sure if I had them or they had me. God reminds me, this week God has reminded me that I am all you need. Do you feel that way about me? God longs to be with me. God longs to be with us. He desires it. Like church, I'm going to tell you, God desires to be with you. But often it's us that don't have the longing. Why? Because we have driven our stakes too far in the ground. We have driven stakes too far in the ground, and this earth has then now become our home, and it's almost a disappointment if the Lord comes back because, hey, we're having a good time down here, and I'm working for all this. No, He wants it to be that we want Him to come so bad. Come, Jesus, come. Oh, you'll sing that song, but do we live it? Are we expecting to see God? Are we wanting to see Him face to face? So in this despair, the psalmist, he was not craving escape. The psalmist was craving an encounter with God. Missionary David Brainerd, he once wrote in his journal, he died at the age of 29 years old, One of the greatest missionaries that's ever lived. He said, oh, that I might never loiter on my heavenly journey. My soul longs for God, for the living God. I see a thirsting soul and I'm almost through, but I see a troubled soul. Look at verses three and four. The psalmist is mocked in verse 3, he said, my tears have been my meat day and night, I've cried. While they've continually say to me, who's they? They is the enemy, those that are chasing him. Where is thy God? In verse four, he says, when I remember, or these past memories of worship only intensify his grief, he says, I remember these things, I pour out my soul in me, for I had gone with the multitude, with all these people that have left these villages and left these places and journeyed up to the house of God. I've been with them before, and I wanna go back, but I can't. And there's a spiritual drought that often includes mockery. Sometimes we're mocked by those that don't believe. Sometimes we're mocked by those that don't believe in God. Maybe atheists or agnostics or maybe someone that's just cynical or bitter at God or whatever, and they'll mock, hey, where's your God now? Hey, preacher, how's it like now? But you know who does most of the mocking? The trials will mock you. You start asking the question inside yourself, God, where are you? God, why did this happen? Why did this happen to me? Mockery will come, then your remembrance of things. Boy, we drive by that house every day, multiple times a day. We've had to go inside it, though it's not safe, but we've had to go inside it and we've had to get a few other belongings out and get some things out that wasn't affected by whatever. But we've had to drive by it every day. Had to drive by it this morning and that mocking, look at that. That's what you got. If you're not careful, you'll go to a place that you should not go. You'll find yourself thinking thoughts that you should not think. You start questioning, but not really asking God why you're questioning the calling of God, you're questioning things. And it becomes a mockery. It intensifies with grief. It intensifies when you start thinking about memories that are made or things that are done and then mourning. You begin to mourn. But look at verse 5. Why art thou cast down, O my soul? Who's he speaking to? He's not speaking to God. He's actually asking himself the question. Why art thou cast down, O my soul? Why art thou disquieted in me? And then he answers his own questions. Hope thou in God. Hope thou in God. The psalmist stops listening to himself and he begins to preach to himself. He stops listening to all of the questions and all of the discouragement and even the naysayers and the enemy, and he begins to preach to himself. That word disquieted, it actually means agitated or storm-tossed. And there's a kind of holy stubbornness here. He says, I shall yet preach. Praise him hope in God and in God alone for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance Martin Lloyd-jones said this he said most of your unhappiness in life is due to the fact that you were listening to yourself instead of talking to yourself You're listening to yourself You ever been to a place where you've listened to yourself and you've convinced yourself that this is not worth it or God's abandoned you or God's given up on you or God doesn't see your affliction and you listen, listen, listen instead of preaching to yourself? On this side of the cross, we know the greatest The greatest ground for our hope is Jesus Christ and Him crucified for our sins and triumphant over the grave. So what have I had to do since last Sunday morning? I've had to preach the gospel to myself. I've had to preach that He has conquered everything. Greater is He that is in you than He that is in the world. Hey, He is victorious and He conquered the cross. He conquered death. He conquered all of the enemy. He's conquered hell. He's conquered the devil and Satan. And He can't get me through this trial? Preach to yourself. There's nobody there to preach to me. I couldn't pull up a chair and sit there and have my favorite preacher preach a message to me to encourage me. Nobody around. So what do you do? You grab your Bible and you preach the gospel to yourself and you encourage yourself in the Lord your God. The same thing that David did in first Samuel chapter 30 when his house burned and all of Ziklag burned and all of the men of the city, they turned on David and David Yes, he was scheming. Yes, David really at that point had been not right. He'd been joining ranks with the enemy and all. But David came to a place where he said, you know what? I know they want to stone me and I know I have nowhere to go and I know I'm not sure where my wife is and where my children is at this point. But he encouraged himself and the Lord is God. He encouraged himself and the Lord is God. And sometimes church, let me say to you, you will only have an audience of one. And sometimes that's the greatest audience you can have. Just you, alone with God. When the trials are coming, when things are happening, learn to preach to yourself. We see an overwhelmed soul in verses six and seven. He said, Oh my God, my soul was cast down within me. Therefore, will I remember thee from the land of Jordan? And of the Hermonites and the hill of miser deep call from the deep at the noise of the water spouts, all that waves and that billows are gone over me. He's overwhelmed. He's using maybe some metaphoric language here that it seems like waves are crashing all around me in these waves, but he noticed the language here real quick and I'm almost through, but notice what he says in verse seven, all thy waves. Do you see that in verse seven? All thy waves. He doesn't say my waves. The waves does not belong to him. The waves belong to God. God, you're sovereign. God, you allow this. God, the waves are crashing all around me. And God, they're your waves. By the way, what is that? That's faith. That's faith, that's trust. We see a remembering soul. Look at verse number eight. He says, yet the Lord will command by His loving kindness in the daytime and the night. His song shall be with me in my prayer unto God of my life. I will say unto God, my rock, why hast thou forgotten me when I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy? And as with the sword in my bones, mine enemies reproach me while they say daily unto me, where is thy God? There's a remembering in the night. Notice what he does. In the night he sings. It's what he says, I will sing. In the night his song shall be with me. Some of the greatest things. I listen to a devotion every morning. Every morning I listen to a devotion by Shane and Shane, which is just 15 minutes. And all they do is sing, but then they'll give a lesson in that song. Oh, let me tell you. Every morning that devotion was for me. This week was gratitude. Thankfulness. That's one thing I've had to practice this week. How do you become thankful? How do you have gratitude when things are gone? And everything give thanks to the Lord for this. Sweet, we are grateful in all things. They can take your house, they can take your belongings, but they can't steal my soul. And then a hopeful soul, verse 11, I'm through. Why art thou, Jacob, you can come, cast down, O my soul? Why art thou disquieted within me? Hope thou in God, for I shall yet praise him who is the health of my countenance and my God. A lot of the Psalms are what we call bookends. They start They'll have a bookend in the front. You'll see where he starts. He'll then go in the middle and he'll sing or pray. But then he'll end where he began. We call them bookends, especially in the Hebrew. A lot of the Psalms was written that way. So David, listen to me, don't put your shoes on just yet. David ends where he was earlier. But notice, listen, look at verse 11 again. Why art thou cast down, O my soul? Why art thou disquieted within? Hope thou in God, for I shall yet praise him who is the health of my countenance. He ends better than he started. He ends better than he started because he claims God here in verse 11 as my God. He's no longer God. He's my God. And when God becomes personal to you, God was there every second because he's my God. It's a personal declaration. We can give honor and praise to God, even in the dark, because we know that even in the darkest of times, God is there. Even though you can't see Him, God is there. And often in the dark is when God is doing His greatest work. And God was there when you can't see Him. The psalmist knew that he was walking through the darkest night of the soul of his life, his soul, and he's reminded that it's okay to feel low. It's okay to be down. It's okay to feel low as long as you just don't stay there. The feelings are real. They are. Feelings are real. But church, don't miss this. Feelings are real, but they're not always true. There was times where I felt alone. Monday, we called our insurance company and that insurance adjuster told me that he felt like our house was livable. Now, he was in Illinois. He was about 21 years old. His name was Tristan. No offense to any man named Tristan, but you can't be over 30. No offense. If you're watching online, Tristan, I'm sorry. Oh, I'm just looking at pictures and you know, I'm just, and I'm like, bro, you have not seen the destruction. Can't smell a picture, can't feel a picture. I felt alone on Monday. I felt like, man, even my own insurance company has somewhat abandoned. State Farm had turned into scam farm. And I'll be honest with you, that's a lonely feeling when you're not even sure they got you back. Of course, by Tuesday, things had turned around. We fired Tristan and got a new adjuster. And he's much, much better. But I'll tell you somebody that was there for us that whole time, and that was the Lord. Never left us. He's been with us the whole time, even in just the emotional times. And the emotional times for me has been in the early mornings for some reason. Not late at night, but in the mornings when I wake up, I realize I'm not in my home. I realize we had to put our dog down on Friday, last Friday, the day before, our dog of nearly 12 years. And that was already an emotional thing. We didn't even have a chance to really grieve, you know, that she was, dogs become part of your life, especially with the kids. Tough weekend, but the Lord knew all about it. Let me say this about this and we'll close. Faith is not the absence of sadness. It's the presence of God in sadness. That's what faith is. Everything's gonna be okay. Everything's gonna be all right. The thousands, and I'm not talking about, I don't wanna exaggerate, the hundreds of text messages and messages, there's no way that we could have answered them, especially on Sunday and Monday, it was overwhelming. Tuesday even into today. It's just overwhelming the emails and the All the things the phone calls I can't answer You just can't And then there's a comes a point where you're tired of talking about it and telling the story y'all know what I mean, I Felt like I've had to tell the story 1700 times just to my insurance company and so to tell the story again and Though it is a healing, but understand it's, you know, it's tough. But God is there. And that phrase, hope in God, hope in God. If you're here today and you don't know God, my prayer is that you will know him today, because I'll say this, I don't know how the world gets through what they get through without God. I don't know how the world gets through without a church family. Nobody to lean on, nobody to call, nobody to hug, nobody to know that they've got your back, that they're there for you. The world has to cope with it other ways, but we don't cope, we trust in God.