Sure, that's fine. I'll just set this. Yeah, it's probably fine right there. Wednesday night, I just really, really wanted to share, but I felt a little bit of a check in my heart just because of a visitor that we had. Last Sunday morning, if you weren't here for the Sunday School, Jeffrey preached for way over an hour the whole book of 1 John. And I think it's because I needed to hear it. For those of you that know me, and you all do, especially to the ladies, I feel like I just need to say I'm sorry, and please forgive me. for being proud and arrogant, which is the same thing, but just for boasting in something that was a shadow and it was not the truth. God showed me that very clearly last Sunday. He's been showing me and I've just was obstinate and for a lot of reasons. One of them is just a natural affection for some people in my past that still is very hard for me to say that they're lost. But there was a time when I preached what I thought was the gospel from a pulpit as a quote unquote ordained minister. And what I shared was blasphemy and it was not the truth. and I know now that I was not saved. I believe that God was working in me and at times used me in spite of myself to speak truth because there were times that I spoke his word and his word is truth. I believe God used my children and what was going on with my children especially Casey and Chance to create an insatiable hunger in my heart for him but I don't believe that God truly saved me until just a few years ago and I just want you to forgive me for being proud and walking in darkness and continuing to be stubborn to say that I was saved in the past because I know now without a shadow of a doubt I wasn't And what God used was the first few verses of 1 John. And, uh, Jeremy, if you'd read that, I don't think I could read it. Just first seven or eight verses of 1 John. Now, which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we looked upon and have touched with our hands, concerning the word of life. Life was made manifest, and we have seen it, and testify to it, and proclaim to you the eternal life, which was with the Father, and was made manifest to us. That which we have seen and heard, we proclaim also to you, so that you too may have fellowship with us, and indeed our fellowship is with the Father, and with the Son of Jesus Christ. We are writing these things so that our joy may be complete. This is the message we have heard from Him proclaim to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all. If we say we have fellowship with Him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light, We have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, His Son, cleanses us from all sin. If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His word is on us. As Jeffrey shared that last week, I've shared with him that it felt like I'd been struggling for a long time with this and I know now it was the Holy Spirit dealing with me and not letting me have a peace because it was not right. And I felt like I'd been shoving a square block, trying to, unsuccessfully, into a round hole. And what Jeffrey said, if you believe contrary to this and he expounded and you're saying God's a liar everything inside of me screamed no no and it was like everything just really became clear about that and I realized how wrong I'd been and so I just want to proclaim truth always with my life and I don't want to ever err and so if you as a body Seeing me giving back, I told Faith yesterday, I am so thankful that my grandchildren and these children are being trained and brought up in truth and that they don't have to try to flush 30 and 40 years of false doctrine and have to relearn. but it is possible God will teach you and he will train you and he will correct you and I'm so thankful for the correction that God has brought to me and how he has picked me back up and set me up in an upright position because I was wallowing and it was causing division between me and Jeremy my own son and I've already asked him to forgive me but I know that it hindered my relationship with you ladies and I felt it you know when I was bragging and say me and Jeremy disagree about this and that was wrong of me so I just thank you so much for loving me and putting up with some of my hard-headed ways and I love and appreciate you all so very much