In about 6 hours I will have a Spinal Tap done. My cancer that is mostly in remission has been giving me problems with resurfacing and bothering my liver. The doctors have asked me several times to get into my spine and I have a HUGE fear of needles so I declined. But now the time has come that it needs to be done.
A few days ago, my 10 month old parrotlet died. He loved to be under my neck as I did my homework. He had been sick off and on for the last few days so I held him even more. The morning he died I woke up early and decided to see how he was and he was on the bottom of his cage. So I got him out and held onto him while I did my homework. A couple hours later he moved some and then died. His death was very sad and the house is very quiet...even the dog is obviously saddened by the loss of her company through the day. This sadness of loosing a pet is greater than i ever imaged it would be.
So today, with the continued sadness of the loss of Prince my parrot is greater than the fear of the longest needle I have ever seen. God knew how to prepare me for this moment that would normally have been a really fearful and dreaded moment. To this I love Him even more for taking care of me.