This morning I rode with a bunch of ministers to the seminary to work on our case study together. The entire conversation in the van was on nothing but the two liars that put on the show for the nation on the TV box. Not one word about God came up the entire 20 minutes. So I went from devotions with God to secular religious leaders behavior.
During the day, the fellowship with my project team was great as we wrestled with scriptures and which hymns of praise to use for tomorrow. Two of the other teams presented their case study and it was better than I expected.
Then the bomb.
I asked a question and without thinking about it used a street lingo from the hood where I spent over a year witnessing. You would have thought I swore by the behavior of one of the female instructors and her vocal comment paid to several but not to me. The jokes started flying left and right with the one street lingo that I had said in my question.
To the female students I could get too once I was aware of the problem...they laughed and said it was no big deal. But I felt as though I had let God down and maybe caused a smear on His holy name through my lips.
I was so down trod that I came back to the hotel and crawled into bed and prayed...asking God's forgiveness.
God told me....if their minds are that small that they will remember nothing but a small thing and not mention the great things like the prayer sessions you held .... then they are not worth bothering with. So I then realized that I had not caused a smear for God.
Just wished minister students and ministers would remember that there are those who are sensitive to doing anything against the Lord.
The prayer sessions.....out of the 3 nights I held them....2 nights-no one showed up, and last night 5 men prayed together. So I sit here all alone again. I guess these guys are solid enough to stand again Satan on their own without the need of team prayer for one another. How sad.
Cast Down.....disappointed.....but still standing next to Christ.