Today, I was reminded how short our friendships can be on this earth. One of my best friends is definitely moving out of state in November. I was amazed at just how sad I was to hear the news.
Actually this news sadden my entire rest of the day. I took it to God and right now I am just having a cup of hot tea and then leaving my office. I feel like I just need some quiet time with God and they are remodeling the upstair apartment above my office. So I have decided to finish my hot tea and then go home.
God and I had a nice talk today. He had a lot to say to me and some of which I knew He was right but I did not want to hear. I sometimes wonder how He can know me so well and yet love me more than I deserve. I have hurt Him and He told me that I will do so in the future....but that He has everything under control and I must go through the ups and downs to get where He wants me to be. This is so hard to hear. Sometimes I just wished that He had just let me die in 2010 with Cancer so I would be home with Him and never to hurt Him again.
He asked me a lot of questions and we talked for some time this morning. My morning started out late because after He was done, then I spoke with the Holy Spirit about some issues brought up. Today has been a very rough day for me.
I know that I am not perfect. I know that God loves me and forgives me everytime I come to Him. But to hear that I am going to hurt Him....that really cuts me with tears. I know He is right...He always is...but it is hard to imagine hurting someone that loves me so much.
And all this came on the foot of God revealing to me so much that goes on in Heaven with the Angels and Him. The day is full of wonders. Yet as one of my friends said to me, "You woke up today didn't you? Then it is a good day!" Just like what my Mom would have told me if she was still here!
I love you God.
To God be ALL the glory!
Norman GrubbNorman Grubb - missionary and author of the book - Rees Howells Intercessor