Somethings have been going through my mind for over a month. The entire year of 2010, I was sick. Several times they did not expect me to live. Yet, here I am; alive. The whole ordeal has definitely affected me.
Before my focus was on others and what I could do to not be selfish during the rest of my life. The ordeal helped me to realize that I was out of focus. I was refusing to go back to the place where fear and a stand still occurred in my walk with God. I stood before the 'dark night of the soul' and realized the curtail was before me and I could feel the pain of the dark night. The worse pain I would ever realize and have too live through. And I did not want to go forth. So I refocused on everything but the walk that is required of me.
If the mountains were smooth...no one would be able to climb them. The climb up has been full of rocks to twist my ankles, scratches, posionous insects, bother some flying insects, heat, sudden strong winds, and a climb that is not only built by my Father but also guilded to promote my climb unknown at times by myself.
The rat race within the gold guilded buildings help keep the knee caps smooth as a baby's butt. The Asp's tongue is as poisonous as its threatening promising bite. Some calls them wolves in sheep's clothing but in reality they are Asp with the genetics of Satan's spawn throughout their entire being. Their shoulders are bruised by the congregations approval which are mostly of the same family.
The desert's cave of the noman dweller gives the world's undeserving; the palace filled with thousands of Angels to listen to their constant conversations with the ear of eternity. Let my place of the menial tasks give room and place of visions and dreams many kings and priests have desired to spend one hour. Nights spend on my face in heaven and days spent in the chambers of the desired mostly unknown. The cave has a dirt stoney floor that mostly is covered in gold throughout the night and day.
Precious is the awakening and determination of the eyes opened through terror and peace.
To God be ALL the glory
Oswald ChambersOswald Chambers is best known for His book - My Utmost for His Highest.